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30 May 2008
{9:07 PM} Aaaaaaaaaaaaah! I'm going crazy over harps. They are absolutely gorgeous. Salvi Italian-made ones are the best. Therefore, I shall dedicate to the ones I love best.  Ana, 38 string lever harp! 162cm. It's somewhat like the two big ones we have in school. Except those are Japan-made. I just love it's shape. Fifi is kinda, pointy. Hm. This is like, US$5,200.  This is Aurora. 47-string pedal harp. SHOCKINGG! 187cm. SHOCKINGGGGG!! It's like towering over me. I can't get enough of the wood engravings at the bottom. US$22,500. Sigh!  Victor Salvi 50th Anniversary Version. This unique masterpiece of marquetry intrigues with the beauty of walnut, maple, pear wood and mother-of-pearl inlays, makes real a breathtaking dream of incomparable beauty and astounding sound. The specially designed soundboard of 6-year aged spruce is the secret for its impressive power and richness of sound. OMG. OMG. They actually inlay pearl inside the harp. Ho. Price? You'll never believe this. US$100,000. Ah.  Fret not Fifi, I still love you all the same. You are my one and only true love. Anyway, you're my dearest harpy who saved my life. It's so sad that I get blisters when I play you. I just burst one the other day! D: Erm, I shall not go into details, Lest I gross people out. I'm going to accumulate enough money to buy a grand concert harp one day. And till that day comes, I shall happily play my dearest Fifi. And I'll never give her away. I bet she misses her boyfriend, Pam's harp, Harpy. Her boyfriend's Japanese yo! Lol. 1 NIGHT AND 1 MORE DAY TO CHURCH CAMP. I can't wait. Hah. __________________________________________ 29 May 2008
{8:09 PM} It dawned upon me, How I miss you all so much. I miss all the times we had together. And I miss that relationship we once shared. Once you all dashed out of my life, It left this un-fillable ditch. Empty, Hollow. I don't want ever to bring up this matter again. But this one last thing I want to say. I never meant to do anything against you. And this was all a complete misunderstanding. A bond that somehow went overboard with its familarity. I thought about it many many times, Did I ever harbour any evil intentions? and as far as it goes, my conscience is clear. I look at the photos and videos of the past. And I'm amazed, how things degenerated from the joyful warm friendship we once had, to this cold, numb throb. I can never expect the same from us again. Because matters have gone too far, to even patch up. And no matter what we do, we are all still scarred. All I can do now, is just pray for the best. Nothing I say is going to help now. __________________________________________ 27 May 2008
{9:19 PM}   Today, I suddenly saw this wonderful sight outside the window. It was already 7+pm, yet the sky still beheld a white puffy cloud over the lighted buildings. Reminds me of the verse in Exodus, "by day in a pillar of cloud, to lead them the way, and by night in a pillar of fire, to give them light" How marvellous is our God, that he created all these wonders. Aaaah. Anyway! For once in her life, Esther has successfully recorded a video of Fifi the harp. Yay. youtube.com/jumpingsoap :DDDDD __________________________________________ 26 May 2008
{6:04 PM} Haha. Journal II is going to be a secret. And I'm going to splurge my guts out there. Where nobody's going to see! Ha. I have realised something tonight. Nicholas Quah from RI, has a body of a 15 year old, but the face of a 4 year old. Haha! So cute, awwww. He won best speaker! Coolxz manx. The holidays are here! :D yay. I got nothing to say lor. Then i shall not say anything. Hah. __________________________________________ 23 May 2008
{5:37 PM} MY FAST WEB COUNTER IS FINALLY RESTORED. HALLELUJAH! __________________________________________ {1:12 PM} HOMEWORK IS KILLING ME. English. History. HCL. Math. Geography. Ah great. I feel like wallowing in misery. Or maybe not. Tag replies: Jolene: I'm showing my LOVE for you. heh. :D that's why I spam Yaha! Ivyna: Okayyyyy, got people from your school come to mine to sell tickets. yeah. Hilary: Hahaha, complete with an apron! YAYYY. Hilary the care taker.haha. Binny: Okay (: How a harp saved my life - A recount It was a typical hot night in a typical day of a student, me. As usual, homework was on top of the to-do-list, and I was busily trying to complete all my tasks. I leaned back in my chair to stretch myself. Just then, a certain sensation made its presence known. It started with a tightness in the bladder which then gradually progressed to a full-blown urge to pee. It was then that i realised that a trip to the bathroom was anything but unnecessary. As i half stumbled-half hobbled to the bathroom, it was to my utter chagrin to discover that, the bathroom door was locked - My dad was taking a bath. My face turned mauve. HOW???? Then I realised; there was a second bathroom in the house! (See, I don't think when I'm urgent.) Without further ado, I charged to the second alternative - the other bathroom. Just as I reached the corner, I heard the sound of water gushing. Could it be..? It was to my even more utter devastation that I realised; the second bathroom was occupied by my brother. Hey-ho! I discovered that my hair is kinda brown. Or maybe it's just the light. Shuddup Esther, continue with the story. The situation was disastrous. Cataclysmically catastrophic. Sheer waves of panic ran through my body. Bursting at the seams, I knocked on the first bathroom door. "Daddy! Can you hurry?" -Sound of water gushing- "DADDY?!" -Sound of water gushing- I rushed to the second bathroom. "Korkor! I needa pee, can hurry?" -pause- "Why? I need my beauty bath!" (Seriously, he said that. -_-) I gave up trying to persuade them out of the bathroom. (Typical obdurate men.) Just hopefully, the urge would go away. But it didn't. And so I waited. And waited. I tried hopping around on one foot. I tried sitting down on the couch. I tried standing still. I tried thinking of something else. I tried singing. But to no avail. Would I really have to pee in a bag!? And then, I tried playing the harp. Astonishingly, the sound of Fifi (the harp) seemingly eased my otherwise pathetically desperate state. In fact, it soothed me into equanimity. SHOCKING! SHOCKING! Click. Yes, I heard a click. AND MY BROTHER WAS OUT OF THE TOILET! Wrapped in nothing but a seaweedy-green towel. D: With utmost satisfaction I catapulted to the toilet. Aaaah. That unparalleled relief that transcended all boundaries. And that, Is how my dearest harp saved my life (or bladder). I love you Fifi. You're my greatest benefactor. Darling. Esther has learnt her lesson. She will never hold her pee to that extent again. I seem to like talking about pee and bathrooms. I will face it, I'm irreversibly idiosyncratic. __________________________________________ 22 May 2008
{5:31 PM} Today was the last day of schoooool!(: Yup. Jealous yeah. In the morning we had free periods. 8.10 till 11.30! So just slacked in class, Finished Chem creative project thingy, jammed with other people's guitars. Fun man! Both jamming and chem project. After that we cleaned up the classroom. Then we went down for the harp lunch-time concert! After Mrs lee's end-of-term speech. I have realised something. I sound somewhat like alison in the chem recording. :O Harp lunch-time concert. AAAH I forgot to lift up a lever. Which disastrously resulted in a E FLAT instead of a E NATURAL. Which obviously; sounded quite wrong. I have discovered yet another thing about myself. #7) I don't think when my emotions get heated. I mean it! I hardly give a hoot about anything before i start shooting my mouth off about whatever I like. And that is what gets me into trouble. Pathetically disastrous Esther. Typical isn't it? Always getting into dumb situations and expecting to be rescued. Esther has to wise up. And stop shooting her mouth off. Just perhaps, Masking tape might become my bosom friend. In fact, WE COULD BE LIFE-LONG PARTNERS! __________________________________________ 20 May 2008
{7:17 PM} number codes are killing me. . 949 36 968 25263 96877353 367 3837984464 4 3668 3836 5669 949 255 8447 42773633 487 668 2696637 32858 968 273 266387464 46 668 843 6659 4475 46 8447 96753 968 9455 367438 22688 63 663 329 968 226 36 48. __________________________________________ 19 May 2008
{7:23 PM}  haha, i found this cool website. I am extremely un-intrapersonal. Which means, I'm horrible at talking to myself. Isn't that good? It means that, I am not schizophrenic. 416 76779 4 4878 968 866, 84265 968 367 568464 63. 753273 6683 66, 23 42779. __________________________________________ 18 May 2008
{11:26 PM} Yay! For once in her life, Esther feels like a genius. I worked out the formula to derive the source of blood spatter samples! With the help of my dad of course.(: I can officially cross out one item on my wishlist. Black pumps! Although the ones i got were pewter-purplish. But nevermind, I am satisfied. AAAAAAH. 2 MORE WEEKS TO CHURCH CAMP. How can Jolene not be excited. Thankfully, I am out of my stuff-jolene-with-a-cockroach phase. and this time it's for real. Why do you always have to play hard-to-get? I just wish you'd ask me that question. Before it's too late. And sacrifices have to be made. Chances come and get wasted. All because of our stupid ego. I wish i could get excited about it, but it seems i can't. Till you ask me first. suddenly, Situations felt so pathetically wasted last night. Itwas meant to be, I suppose. Wasn't it? __________________________________________ 17 May 2008
{9:40 PM} YAYYYYYY THE FINAL PRODUCT! MY LINKS ARE FINALLY FIXED AHAHAHAHAHAHA I LOVE BLOGSKINNING BABYY! __________________________________________ {7:50 PM} yay hey! esther has created yet another blog skin (: thanks to detonatedlove for the base codes! the links are super ugly though ): And i don't know how to change them THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH FASTWEBCOUNTER on everyone's blog it's like, 1 hits. THERE'S NO SCHOOL ON MONDAY! THANK YOU VESAK DAY(: Officially 15 days to church camp. 1 week 1 day. I want to say something so badly. But i shall not say it. Silence is golden. Somehow, the feeling's gone already. Leaving some traces, which possibly could trigger it again. But who cares, I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEE! Bug off Cupid. Shoo. Bye. __________________________________________ 15 May 2008
{5:31 PM} aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! 不能说的秘密 is like, the nicest chinese movie in the world. So nice! Go Youtube watch, super shiok (: Results back today. Overall I did okay lah, EXCEPT FOR HCL A stupid B4. I suppose it' s my fault then, i didn't exactly put in effort. WHY MY LANG DU ONLY GOT 11.5/20 AAAAAAAAAAAAAH I hate oral man. I really hate it. Melodi and I got 93 for Chem! YAYYYYYYYY! Now my dad is asking my mum: "You see! we should let have let her go china!" Mum: "No lah! Staying at other people's house, not safe." Dad: "Otherwise how?" Mum: No reply. OH MY GOATS. WHY DOES _______ LOOK LIKE _______?!?! Of all people. Splitting image. 99.99 PERCENT! except for the gender. I feel like dying. It's almost like having another _______ in my class. Blessed be your name, Oh Lord. Thank you for everything. For all your blessings. Looks like I've got to buck up for HCL. Die ah Die. My most dreaded subject in the world. Sigh! Seriously, I don't get much of what laoshi says in class. That's how bad it is. Die. LIVE! And to think I wanted to aim for a A2, and ended up dropping insead. WEILIN is an absolute Chinese pro. Sigh! AAAH WHY IS MY FASTWEBCOUNTER not working! it keeps jamming at 1 hits. Weirdddddd! Oh I love the song Here in My life by Hillsongs! It's so meaningful, and the tune is extremely addictive. I love the intro too :D You can play it at jukebox. (: I can transpose! But only higher. -_- which is kinda sad. __________________________________________ 14 May 2008
{10:28 PM}  jolyn janelle bihui trisha and ME(:  yingbing ME su-may niki winnie and jamieee!  Me and trisha! My hair looks like a water fountain. D:  The lookout point (: haha. Bollywood veggies. Our geography excursion for today! It was nice lah, except i needed to pee halfway. Thank goodness they had a nice proper toilet. Or i would have to pathetically resort to using the open-air wilderness pee urinal. Urg. They named it aptly; Mr Pee Wee. Ha. __________________________________________ 13 May 2008
{7:21 PM} i have realised many bad things about myself. #1) I am hyper-sensitive. It's true. I blow up lots of microscopic details and form my own picture, jumping to conclusions. It's horrible, I tell you. #2) I get irritated at any small thing when i'm in a black mood. And that includes people who block the walkway, people who smell weird and people who make a lot of noise. That includes nagging. And. playing the wrong keys on the piano. I get violent when i'm irritated. I whack tables, bang piano keys, slam doors, throw objects around and kick walls. And, I generally make a lot of noise - which in turn makes me even more irritated, a vicious cycle. #3) I absolutely abhor feeling fat. Believe it or not, I feel fat sometimes. And i am not anorexic. Feeling fat gets me irritated too. #4) I'm somewhat of a perfectionist. I won't stop in the middle of my homework to do something else unless i've finished it. And oh yes, I love seeing to-do-lists fully ticked. I can't stand submitting unsatisfactory assignments either. #5) I love procrastinating. By the time I actually sit down to finish my work, it's already late due to the amount of procrastinating I do. Then accompanied by the fact that I won't stop till it's done, I'll do the work till late in the night. That accounts for my lack of sleep. Fortunately enough, the list ends there - or so I think. And very fortunately enough, these traits don't usually surface, and Esther is a happy girl. Yay. 19 MORE DAYS! YAHA! YAHA! YAHA! Our english project rocks my socks off the docks into the locks where they knock. Okay that made absolutely no sense. Off to dinner. Yaha! __________________________________________ 11 May 2008
{9:16 PM} "The horror" "aaah!" "The utter devastatation" "aaaaaaaaaaah!" "That tomorrow is;" "Monday!" Yes. The monday blues are back; yet again. Dreary, Dreadful, Disastrous Monday. I hate mondays. Mondays are the worst days in the world. I love Vesak Day. It's a public holiday on a Monday. YAYYYYYYYYY!! But oh well, If mondays never came, Church camp would never come. I can't waittttt!!! 3 more weeks. Yay. Yay. Yay. Basically, I have a lot of things to yay about. I'm Michelle's assistant teacher for her jap classes. YAY! But i better revise through. I forgot lots and lots of stuff. And going out with Hilary! YAY! YAY! YAY! English project nearly killed me. But hey, we've got a nice campaign slideshow! Esther is going to turn into a panda soon. I promise you. __________________________________________ 09 May 2008
{9:47 PM} To think that someone like you resorts to posing as others. Just in case you had no idea, There are such things as IP numbers. If you had the tiniest microscopic courage; why don't you ask me yourself. Three words: Poser, Loser, Liar. Make that six. Shallow, Despicable, Pathetic. Plus one. Lowdown. Please, for the love of everyone. Make yourself scarce, I've had my share of backbone-less people. __________________________________________ {5:24 PM} Today was somewhat of a disappointment. It's disastrous, to have your hopes strung up high wobbling precariously, only to have them crash down to earth in a split second. Sort of devastating don't you think? I'll live with it, hoping i won't get my hopes high again! Sometimes God doesn't grant us our heart's desire for reasons. Which we may not understand. Weather was no less than sweltering today. Together with the fact that I was suffering; 4 layers of uniform and all, It made school seem like one well, terrible day. Even with 6 ceiling fans, 1 wall fan and 2 standing fans at full blast and that makes 9 fans in one classroom mind you. and they didn't make much of a difference anyway! They were all just blowing out hot air. Sigh. If i could say what I wanna say, I'd say I wanna blow you away. I'd say I want things to go my way. I'd say I want to change people; and shift time. I'd say that imy. if you think this is for you, it isn't. __________________________________________ 08 May 2008
{6:59 PM} aaaaah! I cut my hairrrr. Again! And now it looks like some paintbrush end when i tie it up. :O Went down to go run in the park just now. And i'm going to do sit ups later. JIAN CHI DAO DI exercise sucks maannnnnnn! But i'll have to do it anyway. Girls get fat easily. This saturday! Omggggggg; i'm scared. What if, I can't finish the questions on time? Or i have absolutely no idea how to do them?! I really want to get past this round! YAR! I love the book I'm on, It's called Silent Boy by Torey Hayden It's so interesting, and I love the way the author writes, it's intriguing yet humourous in a sense. So yes, I'm hooked. YAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! 24 days left to church camp! I'm countingggg, I'm counting! I think i'm weird. Waaayyy before the camp I will get very excited. Then a few days before, I will think, "eh? what's so big deal about it arh." Then i'll get not-so-excited. Then when it comes to the day itself I will get very very excited. I bet you on the night before 1st june i can't sleep. :D haha. I love chemistry! I love the universal indicator with acids; so pretty and red and pink. I am attracted to red. Maybe I am a bull. Ha. __________________________________________ 06 May 2008
{10:20 PM} Yay hey; One more paper left to freedom! I wrote a nice nice poem. But obviously i'm not going to put it up here. HaHa. 26 days to church camp. AAAAAAAAAAAAH I can't waitttt! Even though I don't want you to realise, But I think you already do. I'm wishing, I hope you'd never find out, __________________________________________ 05 May 2008
{8:02 PM} YAYYYYYYYYYY no more humans CTS(: Only math and chem left. Haha, end of post. Goodbye! __________________________________________ 03 May 2008
{12:56 PM} Okay i shall dedicate a post to Jolene-going-to-church-camp, as i said that I will. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY JOLENE IS GOING TO CHURCH CAMP YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY __________________________________________ 02 May 2008
{5:48 PM} Geog and Lit are over! Geog was kinda screwedd): Which is, sad. I was at the second last page; and I thought it was my last page. The teacher said there was 10 minutes left. So i happy happy, slowly take my time to finish. Then just when i thought i finished, I flipped over the page. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACCCCCKKKKK There was one entire page left lah! I almost died of devastation. Then i hurry scribble scribble, and finished it in time. Wah, it was disastrous, I felt like my guts were about to spill out when I saw that last page. Literature was okay, wrote about 3 pages. The questions that ms ryna gave us were tested! She hint hint one lah. So i happily wrote like happy(: History's on monday. HAAAAAAAAAAH I don't have any mood to study. Oh man! You know this girl went to SOTA, and the school bought her a $40,000 harp. It's crazy lah! So gooooood. I should have gone too. haha, but nevermind. Yay i can't wait for church camp (: it's like 1 month more only. Imagine the wonderful fun! Then i'll get terribly camp-sick when I get home. Sad. you evoked that feeling again. Again, and again. I couldn't help but think all afternoon; Don't ever leave me will you? Cupid I love you too. __________________________________________ |