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31 July 2008
{9:21 PM} I have nice new black glasses(: REACTIONS FROM THE PUBLIC: Gracious: " You look like a shu dai zi (bookworm)." Me: " HUH, really ah." -gives hurt facial expression- Sheen Yih: "You look like Aunt Agony." Me: "AUNT AGONY?!" -gives expression of utter dismay- Yingjia: " EH I LIKE YOUR SPECS, it's COOL" Xin Yu: "Yeah I like it too." Me: -smiles sweetly- Elvina: "IT TOTALLY DOESN'T FIT YOUR FACE AT ALL!" Me: -IGNORES comment- Shabbna: "It's nice la!" Me: "Yay!" I Do Not Look like Aunt Agony. Aunt Agony looks like This.  This is very bad. But I still love my new glasses. 7 people today said it was nice! YAAAAAYYYYYY. EH MY TASTE NOT THAT BAD OKAY. So now, I look much less toot-ish already. Last time my glasses were super reflective. So I looked like an utter nerd. EURGH! Esther is very proud of her new glasses. Yay.  I promise I will refrain from drawing ever again. __________________________________________ 28 July 2008
{8:30 PM} I just realised I like the word pwn PWN PWN PWN PWN PWN PWN PWN PWN. I PWN YOU! YOU PWN ME!:D SO COOOOOOOOOOL :D __________________________________________ {7:45 PM}  I didn't see it coming either. Mature, nice, amiable, I thought you that way. Things are never what they seem, are they? Pictures are the new trend. So pretty! I shall follow the nice new trend. Heh. Today was relatively okay. Exhausting, perhaps. I hiccuped sporadically. Heh! For once, I tidied up the harp room. I couldn't stand the mess anymore :D Talked to miss lee on the bus back home, She lives near me! (: Sometimes, secrets are so hard to keep. Yet when you let them out, You regret it. Love Actually ezzie. Svelte figure, Torso poised. His arm, her waist. Touching, Feeling. Him, viril. Her, subservient. Amorous, It seemed. They sat, Oak tree. Black-rimmed, Muzzle. Finger, Trigger. Click, Splutter. Her head rests, Against his shoulder. Passers-by, Incognizant. Her eyes dim, His smile sardonic. Engaged, Yet estranged. Him, brute. Her, cadaver. /. __________________________________________ 27 July 2008
{10:11 PM}  Apprehensive.Disillusioned. It's funny how girls get so plastic. plastic: lacking in depth, individuality, or permanence; superficial, dehumanized, or mass-produced Following the crowd and doing what everyone else does. Lacking in individuality, Missing out on your originality. Joining the in crowd. Dating. Attention-seeking. Everyone does this, you do it too. All for the sake of keeping in the crowd. With every facade that you put on, Layers of paint gradually covering your genuinity, Just a mannequin, Isn't that what it is in the end. Nothing but mass-produced plastic shells passing each day by. That's where the word was derived from. Putting on a suit of pretence, Cool, Is that what they call it/. Not free to be who you are, Absolutely petrified to lose sanguinity in your popularity circle. God made us all special in His sight. Isn't that what we all should be?/ __________________________________________ {12:30 AM}  Harps, My most favourite thing in the world. A respite from everything else that matters. Sweet escapade, yes? Dilemmas are not blissful. __________________________________________ 24 July 2008
{3:25 PM} EH I MADE A RECORD! I didn't blog for 10 days, yo! :-D Which is hardly common since I'm excessively textually expressive. Yesterday was a nice day. So I shall smile. SMILEEEEEEEEEE. I'm so tired of tests already mans. Everyday test test test. WE ARE NOT GUINEA PIGS EH! Nyeh. Argumentative essay, geog and gong han today! Argumentative and gong han were relatively okay, JUST THAT I ENDED MY GEOG ASSESSMENT WITHOUT COMPLETING IT. I told you technology isn't good all the time. Oh well, at least i'll get another chance. I wanna go photoshop! Still got class tee to photoshop mans. ): Oh worms're going to get you down. (: __________________________________________ 11 July 2008
{8:50 PM} YOUTH RETREAT PICKIEES!  I miss room four so much. ): I AM UNGLAM AS USUAL. My eyes squint lots when i smile.  The church clique(: LOVES  I look slightly better in this one. IMISSYOUTHRETREAT! __________________________________________ {8:05 PM} WHAT THE HORSES. EURGHHHH. Today was the PL Centre of Excellence thingy, And i mistook this small girl from OEPS with short curly hair for A BOY. me: eh joanne! that boy in the corner there his curly hair super cute eh! joanne: huh? which one?where? me: there! (slightly points) joanne: that's not a boy la! that's a girl! me: got meh? it's a boy what! joanne: IT IS! me: really meh? where got? joanne: she's wearing a skirt. Thank goodness she didn't hear, She would be so terribly hurt I tell you. I FELT SO GUILTY! Some more she was so nice to me. And all along, I happily thought she was a BOY. I'm so terribly deranged. And I thought this girl was chio, when in fact she wasn't at all. And I thought this guy was extremely cute, when in fact he was only okay. darrrrrrn, i can't get over it. ESTHER HAS THE WORST TASTE IN THE WORLD DON'T ASK ME FOR ADVICE ON PEOPLE'S LOOKS. I CANNOT ONE. MY EXPECTATIONS ARE TOO LOW OKAY. Therefore, I have finally come to the conclusion that whoever Esther likes, Isn't really of that good quality after all. Goodness, I'm making people sound like goods. I'm like a vampire. I bite, You die. Hahah! Tomorrow. Nervous. Ah. Pfft. Die. Scared. Petrified. I'm being mobbed with work. Squeeeeeee! I needa shit. Bye. __________________________________________ 10 July 2008
{9:54 PM} What's happened to the old you? The one that I truly liked. Now, It's as if I don't know you anymore. What's left is just this distant throb. Going, going, gone. An wisp of bitter cold, A facade of maturity, What happened to that true joy that I once knew? __________________________________________ 09 July 2008
{11:12 PM} Two words; School sucks. I really want to go back to primary school! Where we would happily skip home at 1.10 everyday. Now, it's a miracle if I can go home at 2pm. Three tests on the way, plus art project that I haven't even bothered to do. Getting FAT is a very menacing thing. It crawls up on you silently like a predator, and you think; Aiyah nevermind one la. And before you know it? PFFFFFFT You're cataclysmically, irreversibly, FAT. And no matter what you do, It's almost impossible to become normal again. I am not anorexic okay. And I do not diet. I can't bear to anyway. Back to crunches, Esther. Hundred every night is going to kill, I promise. I feel so fat! OMGGGGGGG. NOOOOOOOO. Stop it Esther, Shuddup. Someone buy me a treadmill!! Enough, Esther, you are not saying anymore. Now back to the bed to do crunches. Now. Shoo. :-D A hundred crunches at 11.54pm at night. Esther has a slight obsessive compulsive disorder. __________________________________________ 07 July 2008
{3:22 PM} Youth retreat, was fun. (: I want more camps. Urgh, I've got the camp sickness. And the reason why I'm typing so unenthusiastically is because I am sleepy. My homework is still all not done. AAAAAAH SUNDAY Everyone went for 9am service together! Carita kelyn joanne me and natalie sat in the same row. After 9am service we all put our bags in the Ym room, then I went to go help Cg1 to make their sandwiches. CHEESE AND HAM SANDWICH rocks our socks Nat! Super shiok lah. Hoho. Anyway, we had youth briefly, then had lunch. Then we got into our groups! No one from my cg was in my group): Then jialer didn't come so natalie was alone too, we were both in the same boat. Sigh! I have horrible luck with groups. Anyway, we played games after that. THE FIRST GAME It was disgusting. Utterly gory. We had to eat an entire watermelon (still un-shelled) with absolutely no tools at all. So the watermelon was smashed into bits. And we ate from the floor. DISGUSTING EH Then caleb just scooped it from the floor and gave it to me to eat -_- And i thought it was from the watermelon. It's a miracle I didn't get food poisoning. Caleb was hilarious lah, He just grabbed everything and stuffed it into his mouth. And we were done almost 10 minutes before the other group! HAHAHA But in the end we couldn't even piece back the watermelon. Haaah. SECOND GAME We had to put paint on our noses and use it to write a letter on a paper on the person's cheek beside you. ISAAC DID ON ME, IT WAS AWKWARDLY TICKLISH. URGH! That was freaky. And all our noses were pink. Whoohoo. Anyway, it was kinda fun. THIRD GAME We had to skateboard down the carpark ramp on a trolley. Then park in the lane that says plus one. Super fun lah(: The other games just okay lah. Then at night we went prayerwalking around Little India. Man, it was like a jungle out there. There were prostitute houses, drunk people, transvestites, gays, lesbians swarming in the area. This particular prostitute house, there were indian women dressed skimpily in the stairway, And all the men lined up outside. We prayed that God would touch them in a very powerful and personal way and that someday they would come to be christians. This drunk man fell on me. D: And spilt something on my arm. I do not want to know what it was. Drunk man: "s-or-ry, sor-r-ry." Me: "Er heh- er- nevermind!" -runs away- Scary scary. That night we ate instant noodles, then went to sleep at around two. We woke up the next day around 7. I was super sleepy! Then went to the youth room to do bible study. Games after that, Dodgeball! But we threw socks instead of balls. Wet, socks. And we played waterbombs. Got wet yo! Then after lunch we were kinda dismissed already. Aw mans): MRT-ed home with kelyn, That's all, I'm too lazy to blog. Yahaha! Bye. __________________________________________ 05 July 2008
{10:13 AM} Okay dylan, I'm doing your quiz! Whoohoo. Quiz 1: Instructions: Remove one question and add your personal question. Make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 10 people in your list and list them at the end of the post. Notify them in their tagboard that he/she has been tagged. 1. What is my full name? Esther Huang Shu En : D 2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket? Israel, or Egypt! Camels, yo. 3. What's your favourite thing(s) to do? BLOGGING, blog-surfing, ICE-SKATING, CAMPS, laughing, HARPing, going out with my friends, chatting, gossiping(I TRY NOT TO KAY), and diving into a nice book. 4. Do you think money can buy happiness? Sometimes it can, temporary-happiness. 5. Do you sometimes feel like killing someone? No, it's too brutal. I am a gentle and nice girl. Okay. 6. Do you believe you can survive without money? Do you believe you can survive without eating? 7. Do you think there's such a thing as LOVE? Oh, yes. I've been entrapped too many times by that word. 8. What's LOVE? 1) Sacrificing for another person because you love them. 2) A deep, unexplainable attraction and longing for someone. 9. What do you dream of doing in the future? Something that brings new challenges everyday; journalism? 10. List out 3 points about the person who tagged you. Dylan is a very nice, approachable, friendly guy. 11. What makes you happy? Jesus. 12. What type of person do you hate the most? People who accuse others of doing wrong when they don't get their facts right themselves. And hypocrites. And I don't hate them, I dislike them. 13. What do you see yourself 10 years down the road? Working? Haha, I don't know. 14. At what age you intend to get married? When I've found the right person? :l 15. Who is the most important person in your life? My mummy and daddy. :D 16. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? Being close to God, and shining His light in whatever I do. 17. If you had a chance to change your life, what would you want to change? To not be so rash in talking. Urgh! 18. What do you want most in life? true happiness! 19. Are you gay? I'd have to be male first to be gay. 20. Do you believe in miracles? Yes! (: I tag whoever reads this. __________________________________________ 03 July 2008
{8:29 PM} HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, THE SHOWDOWN IS LIKE FUNNY LIKE MAD CAN. I was practically going mad with laughter. The muttons are so funny lah, And the underdogs. HAHAHAH! The person was shaking his hips and clutching on to the fish. OMG i can't get over it. Hahaha. tag replies: Joanne: hello WOMAN! kelyn: you very indecisive eh! One moment say like then one moment say don't like. ILOVEYOU TOO YARRRR. pris: Okay, relinked (: JL: Hello! <3 style="font-weight: bold;">hilary: HAHA SEE I HAVE GOOD TASTE. Glad that you had fun reading, it's shiok lah (: joanne: YEAH LOR! I can't wait for youth retreat (: NATALIE: Yay! (: Yeah it is very nice. jolene: Haha, Hello bloated-boat partner! Whoohoo, we will not sink. Althea: Thanks (: HILARY: WHAAAAAT? Wow, you're the fastest reader i've ever seen. Wow. kelyn: haha, yay! Thank you for everything, Love! Natalie: ahaha ,yes I'm going. I know you are very happy : D iris: Hello! (: passer: Hello, I know who you are. Be proud of your name yes? Thanks for the feedback, I'll improve! (: Just to clarify, I don't roll my eyes at you, I was looking at my fringe. And what were you doing looking at me anyway?! __________________________________________ 02 July 2008
{10:01 PM} No one can stop me from loving Jesus. Absolutely no one can bar me from Him. And that's final. __________________________________________ {6:10 PM} Fly Away - Corrine May. "When will you be home?" she asks as we watch the planes take off We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled As a child, she was my world And now to let me go, I know she bleeds and yet she says to me You can fly so high Keep your gaze upon the sky I'll be prayin every step along the way Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart I love you too much to make you stay Baby fly away Autumn leaves fell into spring time and SIlver-painted hair Daddy called one evening saying "We need you. Please come back" When I saw her laying in her bed Fragile as a child Pale just like an angel taking flight I held her as I cried You can fly so high Keep your gaze upon the sky I'll be prayin every step along the way Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart I love you too much to make you stay Baby fly away ohh... I love you too much to make you stay Baby fly away
The same side of the moon - Corrine May (: Enjoy! I'm looking out the window Where we sat to watch the stars There's a chill within the air It makes my heart long for your touch You may be miles away But as I kneel to pray I see the same side of the moon That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue And know that time and space can't come between me and you We share the same side of the moon And though you'll never see all the tears shine through I know I can't be that far from you If we're both looking on the same side of the moon I picture you across the ocean In your corner of the world I pray the wind will blow my voice And gently whisper in your ear Your night may be my day And though the seasons change It's still the same side of the moon That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue And know that time and space can't come between me and you We share the same side of the moon And though you'll never see all the tears shine through I know I can't be that far from you If we're both looking on the same side of the moon I know I can't be that far from you If we're both looking on the same side of the moon __________________________________________ 01 July 2008
{10:20 PM} Some retard called Yaowie Keegan D Chan Yao Shengvisited my Friendster profile. WHAT THE GOATS! HAHA SO STUPID LAH! Yeah yeah whatever, Friendster's so outdated now, Who cares. I HAVE FACEBOOK OKAY. I'M NOT THAT BAD! __________________________________________ {8:32 PM} YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY! SOMETHING WONDERFUL WONDERFUL HAPPENED TODAY. Esther's going to keep mum though. Ask me yourself. I love you Jesus, DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART! YAY YAY YAY YAY! I prayed so much every night, And really, my wish came through. Thank you Lord!(: When it all comes down to one decision, Which path should be picked? A few months ago, The choice seemed crystal-clear. Now, It's marred by the series of events that's happened. Burning my bridges to the typical educational life. Is that what I'm doing? A new beginning, to start from scratch. Where everyone is at par . Why should I be so hyper-sensitive? Every little thing that people around me do, Leads me to make ludicrous presumptions. Sometimes I wonder, Why can't I be like others. Oblivious to what people think of you, Right or wrong. Not afraid to stand alone. I'm tired, tired. Farewell for now! (: __________________________________________ |