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Tonight.

I realised with utter regret that I'm never going to have a proper day of school in Pl again.

There's nothing left to say anymore.

On the brighter side,

I discovered two loves.

Oh my, Oh my.

My brother introduced me to this film.

It's Japanese anime btw.

(Hilary I know you will adore this.)

It was really, really good.

Apart from some hair raising moments,

(Which were still good )

It was awesome.

It made me cry!

It was about the only film that truly touched my heart.

Okay I conclude my brother has good taste in movies.

The soundtracks, the animations, the story line.

VERY VERY VERY NICE.

I kept thinking about it long after it was over.

And the girl's so cute okay,

Her name is Chihiro (ちひろ）

The film talks about her journey to maturity, becoming braver and wiser and all that.

AND SHE FELL IN LOVE WITH A GUY CALLED HAKU.

Aw so sweeeeet(:

Very highly recommended,

Go watch. 

Hahaha(:

I like this song,

Oh man.

I fell in love with it when I first heard it.

It made me wake up in the morning when I heard it!

Cos it was just too nice to continue sleeping while it played on the radio.

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For some, today would have been the last day i'd see them.

Others, I would be seeing again.

I have to admit,

I cried today.

I just looked at all my friends and realisation struck me.

Everything turned awfully blur.

Loads of hugs went around today.

And I think,

I'll miss the feeling of them.

Melodi, Shabbna, Clara, Priscilla, Alvina, Sarah, Eunice, Sheenyih.

My closest friends, ever.

I'll definitely miss being in an all-girls' school.

Especially PL.

I'm turning 14 tomorrow.

Growing up, I think?

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I was so choked up with missing others,

I never thought about my future ahead.

Now as I think about it,

It isn't so bad.

I'll make new friends.

I will be happy(:

Yay.

Suddenly, I'm getting excited.

I'm looking forward to everything.

There is one thing I'm proud to say.

PL wasn't a regret.

And all-girls still rock the most.

Way more than co-ed ever will.

Girls pwn guys. :D

But nevermind I'm still looking forward to NJIP!

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

I have too many emotions,

Help shabbna.

I need to be neutral again!

I don't know how many times I've talked about my emotions.

I feel terribly stupid.

Okay okay, esther is going to zip up.

And stop her childish juvenile tantrums.

I promise to abstain from miserability.

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Yeah, call me outdated or whatever.

Hahahaha.

Guess what. I bought my first blogshop item:D

Heehee.

It's like so soothing okay.

I love blogshops.

I just wish they'd not make POSB-bank transfers compulsory >:(

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I LOVE YOU EVER SO MUCH.

Priscilla-

Shabbna-

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I want to grab this moment and hold it close, but I know it'll end somehow.

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I'm already starting to feel the misery of leaving.

Great.

I bet you on the last day (NEXT THURSDAY WTH)

I'll just appreciate everything PL-ish.

I'll even appreciate the sanitary pad bins okay.

I'll go around hugging every wall and pillar.

I'll hug the flag pole.

I'll kiss everybody.(Maybe.)

I'm going to start writing letters.

Dedications!

Hello dear. I'll miss your wackiness when I go. ): Remember that note you gave me end of Sec one? I still have it in my wallet. :D All the times we had, What evan-lovers. LOL. Hahahah. And your laughter is contagious. And your jokes. zomg. I will visit, don't worry! And I'm planning on joining band too, hurhur! Hahahaha(:

Woman ah, You really like to touch people a lot ah. Yeah I'll never forget the time you tried to kiss me on the lips (wth) and nearly planted a kiss on my cheek. Hahaha. Your boyfriend will like being with you very much next time. Hahaha. Stop asking me to get a bf in NJ, please! :0 I'll miss all the gossip sessions and talking and just being your friend. Ily!

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Shabbna: Not funny OKAY. I was a twit-wanna-be. Okay. I was a complete loser. Fine. Ah. Not funny stop laughing at me. Later I laugh at your unglam then you know. Or I put up more unglams! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Melodi: YOU ARE THE ONE MAKING ME SAD. WHY IS EVERYTHING SO MISERABLE. I'll miss you, I don't know how many times I have said that. AND WHY MUST YOU GO TO CHINA AND MISS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL YOU GOON. I will just kiap you when you return. Don't drink milk there ah.

Clara: CLARA YOU'RE SO HORRIBLE I was very nice to put up your picture okay. Which means that I treasure you in my heart, awwww(: You have to appreciate it. Otherwise I will also find an even more unglam to put up ah! Yes, hahahaha(:

Elvina: OF COURSE LA THE BEAR SO BIG HOW TO FORGET! Hahaha, the bear sucks! Suckerrrrrrrr, I finally get the chance to say that.

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Time is running out!

6 more days of school?

SHITZSHITZSHITZSHITZ.

I'll miss everything.

I don't know how many times I've said this already.

But it's just like that lah!

I'm sorry I have to sadden you all.

Heheheh, But it so happens that jumpingsoap is my diary.

My not-so-private one anyway(:

My private one is hidden somewhere in the depths of my house, heehee.

Let me list out the people and things I'll miss.

Although we haven't really been that united, but I still love all the people in our class! I don't know why, 2-1 has been a really warm class still, I just feel secure and safe in E04-04(:

Zomg, my favourite CCA ever! Everyone in harp Sec 2 has been so friendly and nice, It almost seems as if we're one big family. This friday's the last time I'm going to be playing in Harp, I wna cry just thinking about it, shitz shitz shitz shitz.

Ahhhhh, what can I say? You two have been my closest friends ever since. I remember it all started with the ikan billis in the forehead joke (what.) And since then we've been always together, talking, laughing, gossiping(heeee), having fun, and Shab, don't forget our shab and esther tuition centre! That made my studying sessions so much more fun. Melodi, you'd better remember our laughing fits, YOU LAUGH EVER SO EASILY OVER ANYTHING. But it was those good days I'll remember, a lot. 

Remember our harp times? The jingle bells rubbish and don't know what nonsense. It was so fun getting high with you all, you all are so sweet and nice. I don't know what to say already, thanks for still sticking by me when practically no one else did. Love you so much dears. And laughing over sarah's laughter in the bus and making a huge racket, that was the ultimate. I'll think of you all alot, alot.

Haha, I don't know whether you'll see this or not. But I just want to say thanks for being my friend during those times. You were like my one and only companion. And our jokes over Worm, (HUH!?) and being sitting partners and our craze over the truecolour books and times in the library. Hahaha. I'll miss you too, all the best in everything.(:

Hahaha, dedications can be requested! (: <

14th October 2008.

Time's passed so fast,

Too fast.

There are much too few days left.

I haven't been struck with the true realisation of how short I have left.

I think I'll be struck when it comes to Monday or something.

Then I'll just go around hugging everyone everyday.

I never knew I'd feel like this.

And I thought I still had so much time left.

WHY CAN'T WE STAY IN THE SAME CLASS FOREVER AND EVER!

I hate time.

Cruel, obnoxious freak of nature.

I'm sad.

I'm really really sad.

Can I don't go now):

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And extremely made use of.

Yup, it's all in the past,

But I just realised what bad taste I have.

Seriously.

Devastatingly appalling taste.

Ew.

Do you use the same tactic all the time?

I must say,

It's rather unheard of.

And rather unorthodox.

Very authentic.

Poor people who get their hearts dug apart at the seams.

Guess what,

I was using the same tactic too.

Living in my fanciful self-conjured world of denial.

Spiraling and weaving fantasies and utopian dreams with pink paraphernalia.

Wow.

You might just find lavender ponies with wings and magenta poodles with ribbons too.

I thought i did.

Hah. I was just creating idyllic hallucinations.

Someone slap me.

I need better taste.

For My sake, Higher expectations.

I'm so juvenile.

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It scares me,

To rediscover the truth.

Of what you've morphed into.

Completely void of the person you used to be.

Tick tock, goes the clock.

Again.

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OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.

PICTURES OF OUR PAST.

SECONDARY ONE AND TWO

I AM GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW TO KIAP AND HUG PEOPLE

OMG I CAN'T STAND IT I WANT TO CRY.

ONLY 9 DAYS LEFT OF SCHOOL.

i am like a water bag waiting to burst.

Because I am like bursting with emotions.

I'm happy, sad, miserable, nostalgic, 

unglam as they may be, it's the authenticity that matters!

YES SHABBNA?

HM HM.

Sorry I'm like so unglam in all the photos,

Your eyes will just dry up, crack, and roll out.

It's only 9 days of school left.

Ugh.

Help. help. help. help. help. help.

I'll miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

You're all so great and nice.

Get ready to be kiaped people.

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I can't explain how much I love harppppppps.

They're like the prettiest things in the world.

And they produce the prettiest sounds in the world.

My harp is like my most valued material possession I have.

I finally played on the pedal harp during lesson:D

1 hour became so much more valued.

Even more since I don't have a pedal harp at home.

It sounds gorgeous.

I promise I am going to get my own pedal harp when I grow up.

Yayz.

Today went out with sarah and alvina(:

Met sarah first at vivo then we watched Mamma Mia,

HAHA.

There were these men dancing in flippers on the deck,

Super funny.

But the movie's super good too, I enjoyed it!

Can you believe it, we spent two hours in forever 21,

Just one shop.

Heehee, the outing was fruitful anywayz.

I bought a top, skirt, camisole and pouch.

I SPLURGED A HUNDRED BUCKS IN A DAY.

SERIOUSLY.

ZOMG.

AND I THOUGHT I WAS VERY CONSERVATIVE WITH MY MONEY.

Nevermind it's an after-eoy-plus-harp-exam-results-reward.

Shitz I don't want to play in front of monday morning assembly.

And shitz no one wants to play with me as a team.

I feel extremely bullied):<

Results, Results. (Why do I even bother anyway.)

Aiyah okay la.

Considering I crapped through science just hoping to finish the paper.

Surprisingly I got 17/23 for physics eh!

Ahahahaha. Shocking. God must have been with me.

I don't know how I managed that 24/25  for comprehension all by myself.

So credits go to Jesus too, (you think I really can manage such a feat meh.)

I'm so happy they rounded off 74.9 for english to 75 HAHAHAHAHA

I would just be horribly chagrined if the same catastrophe happened again.

:D cheeeeeese.

Seriously lots of people are avoiding 3A1 this year.

Even from my class.

Everyone's competing for 3A2/3A3.

So weird, the order's going upside down.

Clara suggests I put 3E1 on my form, zomg hahaha.

Church tomorrow, plus games day, yay!(:

These days are the happiest ever,

Yay eunice I am writing a happy post!

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Today I was in the canteen.

I was sitting at a table.

Around me were my friends.

My closest friends.

Everyone talked happily.

Then all sound muted.

And the background blurred.

I leaned back and looked at my friends.

Perfect to the point whereby you get scared.

Where situations cannot get any better,

They have no choice but to plummet downwards.

Everyone seemed the perfect image of friends.

Something lit up within me,

The spark of flame that blooms on a wax candle.

Satisfying results, good friends, wonderful family?

It seems like a scene you would see in a serial drama finale.

Not in real life.

Life's a quadratic graph scale.

It builds to the climax before toppling downwards and climbing up again.

Sounds like a case of never experiencing equanimity?

And then I realised I could see the edge of the track.

One that plummets helplessly into a deep ravine.

I knew what it was.

Nothing can stay perfect.

She placed the last puzzle piece down,

It fit perfectly, falling into its position with a subtle click.

A slightest whimper that brought the greatest satisfaction.

She leaned back to admire the stunning work of art.

A long tendril of ebony-brown hair fell onto her face with a soft sigh.

She exhaled, and the strand of hair fluttered gaily in her breath.

A dance, she thought. A dance of accomplishment.

She stood up.

Strange as it was, she was drifting away.

Further and further, till all that was left of the jigsaw puzzle was a faint blur.

What the vibrant crimson had been was now a mere, weak whisper of amaranth pink.

The only constant thing is change,

Isn't it?

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Talk about closure,

It's like watching a movie of your life.

The tape plays to the end of the film and you rewind it.

Back through all troubles, joy and obstacles.

And you watch the prologue of the film,

Struck with sudden realisation of the knowledge of the end.

Issues resolved,

Brings about the end of what might be called the credits of this film.

Assurance finally attained,

That everything will finally be,

That I can say with gusto,

Plus the factor of everyone getting a distinction for harp exam,

I might finally call today,

A wonderful day.

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Tag replies:

Hilary: HAHA you sound like some romantically-obsessed lover of mine, Nevermind it's okay. I love you too, and "daisies and sunshine shall cease without you!" ily! I still owe you your present, hahahaha(:

Yingjia: Thankyouthankyou! haha i'm already jumping around lar.

Jolyn: Hahaha, thanks(:

Joanne: Yeah i really think you are very weird. Aiyah next sunday I bring the geog textbook for you to hold then you can walk around holding a geog textbook, yeah? Nevermind at least it will show everyone that you are extremely dedicated to your studies, heheheheh.

Clara: WHAT NEHNEHPOK! Then clara shall be nehnehpokette (the female version, hahaha)

Alvina: YUPZ LOVE, can't wait (: shoppingzzzzzz.

Ivyna: Aiyah I was already well before sunday thank goodness or I think i'd have fallen even sicker when I saw you, HAHAHA,  joking lah.(:

Natalie: Thanks! Heeeee(:

Kelyn: Hahaha, hello!

Pris: okayziez.

jolene: Hahaha, wow. I heard a great big boom! (:It's over already! Yayyayayayayay. now you can celebrate:D

Althea: Hello Althea :D

yingjia: Yay! I feel complimented(: Hahaha, thankyou!

FAITH: HELLO, :D

SY: you ah. very crapz.

jolene: heheheheh. I know (: Yay we are free together.

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I must say I'm proud of myself,

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It always seems like blogging is a breeze,

And I've wondered, what's that gushing force behind the flow of thoughts?

Something that keeps the ideas thrusting forth and jostling each other out.

It seems enchanting, mesmerizing to see words intertwining onto a page.

Like life bursting from a single tiny seed- a thought,

Into a word, a motion, an action.

Discovering an orchid in the cracks of asphalt.

Exotic, yet delicate.

Words breathe life.

They slice through clean,

And mend it back.

Words laugh,

They prance about, unrestrained,

In that distance between two people.

Leaving themselves to be interpreted the way they will be.

Words are the spark that ignites the fire.

Tongue.

Slippery pink organ.

Tastes,

Licks,

Kisses,

Chatters,

Encourages,

Kills.

Tongue;

"Tiny yet lethal."

Words.

"Insignificant yet brutal."

The absolute wonders of speech.

I think I'm the luckiest person in the world!